Things and stuff, stuff and things

Yes, there is much to discuss. I am now 100% self-employed again. It’s terrifying and exciting…mostly terrifying. The sudden crash of financial stability is not something to be taken lightly. But I still would not take back my old job for any amount of money in the world.

The firm that I worked for was crashing at an almost amazing speed. There were often promises of being bought out, bringing in new financial resources, etc. But the pace at which they demanded from their employees was incredible. Two people in the firm had nervous breakdowns and had to take leaves of absence to “rest up.” As for myself, my drinking was getting very much out of hand and I found myself crying most days from the mixture of stress, depression, and guilt.

It finally came to a head when they gave me the most problematic account “because you aren’t doing much work anyhow.” The site, poor thing, was a hot mess and there was no way to tackle it. We had no resources, no money, no time, and I had never worked on the account before. But I knew the expectation was to make it run perfectly using developers who were stretched thin as it were, and a budget that was negligible as it was. That’s when I finally said “no.” I would not take responsibility for that quagmire and I would save my own sanity. I gave them a months notice so that they had ample time to replace me, or to have me train another person.

As of now, my manager is doing all of my work. They do not have the money to replace me.

So that is the story of my departure from the corporate regime. My alcohol consumption has significantly decreased, I get to spend time with my husband that doesn’t involve crying on his shoulder, and I do feel happier, over all. The money stuff will not be pleasant to deal with, but hopefully holiday sales will let me coast until February when the payments from NYIGF will come in (hopefully!).

There is also some exciting new project that I have begun to work on, but that will be for another post shortly.

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