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A season full of MEH and some exciting news.
This years holiday season was a series of new shows and, ultimately, bad choices for myself. Even the few good shows that I clung to for dear life ended up being disappointments. Many of them seemed to be a combination of poor marketing, new organizers, and an overall lack of effort. I made enough to sustain myself for January, but my stretch goal of having my bills paid for February is not going to happen this month.
In any case, it’s given me more time to work on my e-book. YES! This was the big news I had mentioned in a prior post.
I’ve been thinking a lot about what I know/do well. Frankly, it isn’t much. That said, I have had almost 8 years of experience in the world of craft shows and so many have asked me for guidance at shows…where to find them, where to get this display or that table…that I realized I DO have a vast knowledge of this. As I transition out of the world of shows and into more wholesale, I want to pass on the tips and tricks I’ve had to learn the hard way, to spare some of you those financial mistakes!
The book will be released on this blog in early 2012, so please keep an eye out for it.
Things and stuff, stuff and things
Yes, there is much to discuss. I am now 100% self-employed again. It’s terrifying and exciting…mostly terrifying. The sudden crash of financial stability is not something to be taken lightly. But I still would not take back my old job for any amount of money in the world.
The firm that I worked for was crashing at an almost amazing speed. There were often promises of being bought out, bringing in new financial resources, etc. But the pace at which they demanded from their employees was incredible. Two people in the firm had nervous breakdowns and had to take leaves of absence to “rest up.” As for myself, my drinking was getting very much out of hand and I found myself crying most days from the mixture of stress, depression, and guilt.
It finally came to a head when they gave me the most problematic account “because you aren’t doing much work anyhow.” The site, poor thing, was a hot mess and there was no way to tackle it. We had no resources, no money, no time, and I had never worked on the account before. But I knew the expectation was to make it run perfectly using developers who were stretched thin as it were, and a budget that was negligible as it was. That’s when I finally said “no.” I would not take responsibility for that quagmire and I would save my own sanity. I gave them a months notice so that they had ample time to replace me, or to have me train another person.
As of now, my manager is doing all of my work. They do not have the money to replace me.
So that is the story of my departure from the corporate regime. My alcohol consumption has significantly decreased, I get to spend time with my husband that doesn’t involve crying on his shoulder, and I do feel happier, over all. The money stuff will not be pleasant to deal with, but hopefully holiday sales will let me coast until February when the payments from NYIGF will come in (hopefully!).
There is also some exciting new project that I have begun to work on, but that will be for another post shortly.
blog envy
despite my lack of posting, this blog is always in my head. “What do I want to say?” “What am I contributing?” and from there is goes into a downward spiral of apathy, of things I wish I could post about.
To motivate YOU to also accept envy you may have for others (embrace it, friends!), here is my list of things I desperately envy from other bloggers.
I wish I could blog about:
Fashion (its fun, but i know nothing about it)
Makeup (same)
Comics (I want to be hyperbole and a half when I grow up)
Anyone who is able to REMOTELY keep to a schedule.
oh and also *cough* iresignedfrommyjobandmylastdayisNovember30 *cough*
we’ll discuss soon.
We could only go up from here
big news, kids.
No, not about my last post…but I’ve been so down for so long that I just knew something had to give…I had to move upwards somehow.
A few weeks ago it was the semi-annual Henri Bendel Open See.
Feel the burn(out)!
Something has to change.
I’m running at 200% all of the time…one for day job, one for Metropolis.
You may recall that last year at this exact time is when I started my day job and how much I truly enjoyed it.
Those days are gone. The company is crumbling around me, the employees are overworked, underpaid, and developing some pretty nasty coping mechanisms, myself included.
Last year I was so happy to find a regular paycheck, now Im afraid to let it go. But I cannot keep going on this way or burnout is imminent.
I hope to be out of there by the end of the month. Keep your fingers crossed.
Me + You = Friends?
